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unhinged
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now when my mother died
i had to take it in stride
there ain't no room for pride
in watching your father cry
and dad made it until maybe a year later
when they found his suicide
inside of a grain elevator
got over it
i had no other offers or options
thought about whether or not
mom and pop was watching
never bothered with caution
no time for fear
saw my folks carry fear
for most my early years
and i learned from it
turned numb and ignored the storm
a burning sun waiting for the world to plummet
finished growing_up under my uncle's roof
taught me how to count all the way up to 100 proof
from watching him
i learned how to gather nourishment
living off the different women that he had to nurture him
and on the surface
i became a normal preteen
more afraid of nuclear war
than stay bites and beestings
my best friend was my tv
gameshows and cartoons substituted for
puppies rainbows and balloons
now here i am
the shy type
and i think i'm doing alright
considering what it was like
living my life
it's all sunshine
it's nothing but sunshine (10x)
now it's been seventeen summers since i've seen my mother
but every night i see her smile inside my dreams
when i was younger
i didn't actually see the accident happen
but every night i see her smile
as it shatters against her screams
i can only imagine dad's internal reaction
strength infernal burning
bound in his brain
what's it take to make a man that owns acres of land
abandon the family plan
and drown himself in his grains?
i'm glad i left that farm in northern minnesota
where the time moves slower
and the winters are colder
became a city boy
where everybody acts like they older
where they stick to themselves
and keep a chip on they shoulder
26 years of age
no longer full of rage
i think it's safe to say
i've turned the page on my childhood days
yo look ma
i'm a productive member of society
when i'm drunk i make noise
but otherwise i live quietly
and on the weekend
i go back up north to reminisce
remember what it was like
pretending to be a kid
late at night i walk the fields
and lurk in the shadows
getting even with life
by murdering cattle
(creepy interlude)
i've got sunshine on a cloudy day
when it's cold outside i've got the month of may
(creepy laughing)
it's all sunshine
it's nothing but sunshine (10x)
and i'm gonna be alright
and you gonna be alright
you aint gotta hold my hand
just walk with me tonight (10x layered over 1st chorus, then separate)
seriously, i love slug.
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