blather
not_sure_who_i_am_today
sab random_word_or_phrase and suddenly
im unsure
unsure of what im doing
unsure of what im doing here
unsure of what i did
unsure of my plans
my thoughts
of who i think
i thought
i was

05
i saw it and thought 05
christ
05

05 and i entered it with such strength
only to have it disolve in the face
of a random sentace
by someone else


i resolved to not get tangled anymore
a couple of days before new years
i decided, damnit

so i refuse now


the panic
is churning below the surface
but i refuse to look at it
i dont know if thats right or wrong
but its all i got

this_isnt_art_its_not_even_beautiful
050102