blather
not_anger_at_all
no reason so fucking angry
why is it that everyone else's compliments mean nothing compared to one person's distaste/disappointment? if they were openly pissed off at me and told me that i screwed up and all around suck, i could easily be pissed off right back at them and let it go pretty easily. but no...it's the damn unhappiness, disappointment, dejection, that triggers the lasting empathy.

fucking lasting empathy. i hate the fact that i made you feel this way. i hate the fact that you make me feel this way. i don't even know why.

i started this blather with angry but now i realize that it's not_anger_at_all.
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