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I've been shut off. My brain was starting to feel panic at the thought of not having a drink, so I had stop for a while, to make a show of control to myself. It's been since sunday (four days?) and the weekend is coming. it's going horrible - a dreary, uncomfortable, anxious, fidgety couple of days - but I want to make it through a few weeks at least. just because it is the weekend is not really an excuse. funny thing is, I don't feel like my life is all that much better. well, I guess in some ways, maybe. I do feel a bit more calm about the random bad shit that happens. However, I'm also a bit bored. So much entertainment revolves around alcohol, and most places I can think to go, especially alone, are bars. I guess I could go to the movies or something. I'm going to make sure I post a counter-point here the next time I'm drinking, for some perspective. Then I'll be dreary, uncomfortable, anxious, fidgety and DRUNK.
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