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Casey
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I WANT TO GO HOME!!! I WANT TO GET THE HELL OUT OF THIS PLACE AND FUCKING GO HOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMEEEEEEEE!!!! I WANT TO GO BACK TO BORING AS HELL ALGONA AND SPEND TIME THERE. I NEED TO BE THERE FOR MORE THAN JUST 48 HOURS THEN HAVE TO DRIVE BACK HERE BY 6 ON SUNDAY FOR FUCKING GLEE CLUB. I WANT TO BE BACK WITH PEOPLE WHO I THINK CARE ABOUT ME. I WANT TO BE AROUND PEOPLE WHO SMILE AND TALK TO ME. I WANT TO WANDER AROUND K-MART! I WANT TO BE FORCED TO BE ABLE TO ONLY EAT AT 4 DIFFERENT PLACES IN TOWN! I NEED TO FEEL LOVE AND HOPE AGAIN!!!
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silentbob
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i'm in algona and i wish you were here
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"bunnyboy"
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i want a home to go to. anyone want a roommate?
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Syrope
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there is about a 2 second interval each week when i wish i was at home. its usually when i miss my kitty. i love you, weeby!
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*silent screams
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i can't handle the truth when its being shoved in my face. My first reaction is to yell, scream, run, and hide.
I've gotta open my eyes for once and for all.
I can't allow myself to fall back into the position that I've cemented myself in for years now. I can't blind myself from truth that needs to be seen. I need to stop locking myself inside the little room of my little world and start realizing how much I'm hurting myself. I need to allow myself to fuck up instead of taking away every chance imaginable away from myself. I am my own worst enemy.
My savior...
I need to open the eyes that have been glued shut one too many times. I can't let myself slip back into the comforting position once agian.
I've never imagined being able to have everything my mind convinced me that I didn't deserve.
This is exactly what I need...no matter how unconvincled I was of it before.
Things always seem to have a weird way of working out. I write about something that was suddenly stuck inside my mind, only to get the reality of it thrown at me only hours later.
Whatever it is that I've been handed, I need to cherish and hang onto it, never allowing it to slip away into the darkness as my eyes begin to close.
It feels like ahead of me is a journey, another world just discoverd...a key being placed in my hands, leaving me standing there in front of the door with the decision of walking into a different world, not knowing whats to come, or allowing myself to stay in the place thats all too familiar, because its all I seen to know. Do I allow myself to unlock the door, never turning back or do I stand there thinking my thoughts to death due to fake confusion that I'm just too blind to see?
I already know the answer yet a pain of fear is hanging on for dear life. I convinced myself that I don't have what it takes to overcome the fear because I know if I tried, it wouldn't be that hard...
It seems I'm overcoming the fear of whatz on the other side by realizing the fear of whats to become of me if I don't allow myself to do this.
The worst that could happen inside is still far better than the best that could ever happen inside my bubble.
Part of me is trying to convince myself that your wrong, that you don't like the person that I really am so your trying to change me, to make me become someone of something else... yet in the back on my mind lays the thought that thinking that is just my way of continueing to blind myself from truth.
I trust you more than I trust myself.
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god
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this!
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PrEst//\//Wich
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I trust drugs not people. People, hate, lie, cheat, confuse, hurt and you ca'nt stop them. drugs are more cetain. It absorbs into the bloodstream and has a certain effect depending on what chemicals are in your blood.
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x
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certainly not twice. i want to tell someone. and there's no one i can tell who won't just dissaprove and make me feel bad.
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kookaburra
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ive got a cat on my lap
a song in heart
and a banjo on my knee
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mous
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but i'd liek to try again
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