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nerves_and_boys
otterpup i'm not an idiot
but i turn into a fool around you

and i can see you feel uncomfortable
as i do

because i'm not an idiot
and i make things difficult

and you are playing games with me
and i don't know if that's cos you're scared or if that's cos you don't know how to say no or if that's cos you are enjoying this control

and i think part of my nervous fear is that i think, maybe you are enjoying it
and that if you are, maybe i shouldn't like you so much

but if you aren't...

that probably means you don't like me

but if you do...

that probably means you're too shy

and that makes me so goddamn nervous
and the whole cycle starts again

and i'm going crazy
but i promise i'm not normally an idiot
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