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my_room_my_mind_is_entropy
misstree i keep shoving piles to and fro
trying to cast out bucketfuls of downfall
and my room crumbles around me
and i forget who i am
lose what i'm doing

but i know there are few systems
made of straight lines. they are
spirals and waves and overlapping entities,
and my walls are losing old components
as i get in a few lucky digs at this
stagnant innerouter incarnation.

i want to say that i'll dig day and night until
hell and happiness breaks loose, i'm back
and all is right with the world,
but how about i do what i can, and
try not to beat myself up when i don't,
and celebrate when i do.

innerouter of this form is a difficult
beast to battle, being made of nothing,
of willessness, of slow sleeping suffocation,
clinging mist seeping into struggling coals.

but with the demons of caffeine
lending me their tridents and twitches,
i'll knock some of the stuffing out of this
pile of wet wool that is my room, that is my mind.
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endless desire i find that my room controls a lot of my thoughts. my mind feels more sorted when my room is controlled; my room feels like a drowning prison when my mind is taken hostage.

i really liked this.
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