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joe_schmuchatelli maybe i was happy and optimistic

maybe i blindly (or hopefully surreptitiously) obeyed my most humanistic impulses and was a gleeful participant in group think

maybe i was a slightly overweight, slightly sweaty, not overly pleasant (or unpleasant), bourgeois middle class, privelidged, stupid, idiot who wanted to vote for dubya and later got bit in the ass
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god she would have me more miserable than ever just so she could tell i'd been affected by her. 041027
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once again I could have been a boy. I could have walked around exposed. I could have been a child star. I might have been a druggie, or a hippie or a freak. A million things I might have been, but none of them are me. 041028
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a i should have been a boy or adopted or just not born. it sounds self deprecating, but it's true. my mother never wanted a girl. my parents shouldn't have had children - especially together.

I might have had a normal childhood... well as normal as any. It wouldn't have been abusive or neglectful. I could have had a mom or dad or both that would have loved me and encouraged me to follow a dream that wasn't theirs. I wonder who I would have been. who i could have been. down this path lays madness
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arwyn i should have been a boy or adopted or just not born. it sounds self deprecating, but it's true. my mother never wanted a girl. my parents shouldn't have had children - especially together.

I might have had a normal childhood... well as normal as any. It wouldn't have been abusive or neglectful. I could have had a mom or dad or both that would have loved me and encouraged me to follow a dream that wasn't theirs. I wonder who I would have been. who i could have been. down this path lays madness
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