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x "Visualize a scenario in which Israelis and Palestinians are still embroiled in a hateful state of siege for another 100 years. Imagine that the personal problems bugging you now will continue to torment you indefinitely. Live your life as if you believe the world is falling apart and that we human beings are parasites bent on wrecking the paradise we've been blessed with. APRIL FOOL! Don't you dare indulge in any of the hackneyed cynicism I just spouted. While educated idiots might try to convince you that badmouthing the future is honest and intelligent, it's actually a bad habit based on delusion. Here's your real assignment, Gemini: Retrain your mind to expect the best. Visualize in graphic detail the transformations you'd love to see. Cultivate delight using all your ingenuity."

I was with them up until the switch. I was thinking "believe me, that's already where i am". I don't want to believe that things can be good because I'm so so tired of being hurt. I know that's no way to live, but is being hurt all the time a good way to live?
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x Ok, horoscope. I'm listening to you. Please don't let me get kicked in the face. At least not for awhile. Please. 040403