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This is his gift. This is what he was put on this earth to do... to sing. His voice continues to weaken me, to bring me back to routine.
I can still remember what it felt like to want. All I wanted was to know how you tasted, how you felt... what it would feel like to know you, in ways I would only know. And I can still remember what it felt like the first time I had you. I coudl barely breathe, and I couldnt take my eyes off of you. You're so brilliant! I remember wishing so hard that the sun wouldnt rise that morning, so I could lay next to you in your bed forever. If only time would be still for that very moment, So I could gaze at your beatiful body in its moments of rest. You're even amazing when you sleep.
I cant stop. Because Im so amazed that this warmth which was born inside me the second your eyes met mine, has never faded, not even a fraction... after all this time. I have this reason to be thankful, because the pain I felt in my heart, the pain that came with wanting you more than anything, was only to be relieved by having you, for well over a year now.
Dont ever think Im not grateful. I go over it in my head everyday. What would I do without you? The one who proved to me my heart has only been fooled in the past, and never really been given until you.
I want to climb to the top of my 4-story apartment building and scream your name at the top of my lungs, only to fall to my knees and burst into tears. So I hand you my bleeding heart, do as you please with it, whether it be to lock it up and treasure it forever, or to throw it aside to gather dust... whatever it be, it will be worth what I have had of you so far.
So much deeper... more than anything.
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