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we are not a couple.
that chance went away when you broke off the casual sex, when things started to feel too much like being a relationship.
then we stayed friends.
and friendship made us closer, while you still fucked other girls.
they came, and when you broke if off with them when they became too attached, i was still there picking you up in the rain to grocery shop, tailoring a suit for you to wear to a family wedding, driving across the state to visit a graduate program you were interested in.
when they were gone, you were with me. grabbing random lunches of double doses of pie, encouraging me to use my voice, creating art together, organizing my cluttered car, standing by my side in the ER with snacks that annoyed the nurses, exhausting yourself and staying up with me every four hours to make sure i had my pain meds.
we have a relationship. it is beautiful and special and i care for you deeply.
to say "we might as well be a couple" to a random stranger is a betrayal to everything i still want with you.
now how do i tell you this?
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