blather
meagre_consolations
Living...for now When the inanity of these human systems drives me to the brink of madness, I console myself with the knowledge that I could end my life, and that it wouldn't be a tragedy. A secret consolation, that. In the absence of other consolations, I cling to this. 060219
...
unhinged he called to make sure i was okay the next day, but also to make it abudantly clear that he 'wasn't looking for a girlfriend right now' and that he felt guilty. he felt guilty...hhhmmmm. i was more angry by that than the fact that he could say i was a good lay to my face a couple hours after he said he didn't want to lead me on because he 'wasn't looking for a girlfriend right now'

god, that shit pisses me off. and i wonder why i have issues with sex. the bad part was sex with him was good enough that i was actually considering the whole fuck_puppet thing that blew up in my face around this time last year.

meagre consolation - i'm a good lay but not good enough to be his girlfriend.
060220