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ivyducktwilightseto is so overwhelming now I am certain i can no longer carry on. it's all happening once again... I've neglected to get help and I'm in the middle of another semester of school, unable to work, unable to complete the simplest of assignments, unable to keep up with my 3 easy classes. Poetry is beginning right now, I'm in the library. Ican't face them all again. I can't be that close to everyone. Emailing my professors again, explaining them why Ican't make it to the classes i love. i'm sure they believe me all the way.

just falling apart. just sitting here. godI need another beer.
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Lemon_Soda *empathetic sigh* 091021
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unhinged it's the cloudy season in southeast wisconsin


try as i might, the lack of sunshine drags me down.
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oneofyou medication really helps... 091021
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oneofyou TAKE IT EASY! Don't try to please anyone, avoid stress at all cost 091021
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Ouroboros When you're spiraling down, and everything is moving away from you very fast, and all the promises you've made to yourself and others seem impossible, know this: that returning to a state you've been in before doesn't mean you are regressing, or failing- you are different this time, and have more awareness- even an ounce more of awareness that will get you through this. Blackness passes, even when you believe it won't- your brain likes to manipulate you into thinking it's hopeless, when it's not. Love yourself, love the blackness, love the light, and all you have to do is just that one thing that links you to your lifeline (reach out, call, talk, walk, write, eat, breathe, leave, cry- whatever it is for you that connects to life) 091027
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Ouroboros bipolar_advantage 091113
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perfectly_chaotic My AODA counselor suggested I may be bi-polar after my speaking of my racing thoughts that I have had since childhood. 110705