blather
maintaining_lucidity_amongst_intense_distractions
hsg focusimplicitly on thX perience itself, not meaning, not interpretation... rather intrippidatIoN to intrepidation. 080202
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unhinged playing stravinsky with 80 other people in an amazing orchestra hall

you have to listen to get it right
but if you listen too close
your own shit
goes straight to hell
using both hemispheres at once
the brain is shocked and delighted
and suddenly
playing well with others
means something completely different
than it did when you were 4
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unhinged (sometimes i really miss playing in an orchestra...that performance of stravinsky was almost twenty years ago but i can still see the wave of the standing ovation spread across the crowd as the last chords were still ringing through the great acoustics of severance hall in my photographic_memory ) 180225