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minchka so at this point in time, i believe,
everyone Knows Their
Future.

my crystal ball suddenly clouds and nights i spend awake
frantic with failure and
entirely alone

'tis not as worse as this looming
fear of unsuccess but bad enough

as it is.

could you ever imagine that i
would have nobody to talk to?

'you are much loved'

who will love me if i'm not
accomplished enough, talented enough
smart enough

this is not what i planned
not what is supposed to happen at
all

i wish i belonged somewhere
i wish my paths were less tangled
i wish i could, for once, be still
and peaceful
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