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lousy_drunk
stork daddy "dad, you're a fucking lousy drunk"

"that's not fair, i'm a lousy father, i'm a great drunk" - somebody else's dad
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nomatter he seemed nice
at first
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no reason. none whatsoever. drunk again
but not so good this time

negative feelings just seemed to have been magnified
happens sometimes when i hang out with just them
nothing against them, but they hang out a lot and have a lot of inside jokes and stories
and i think it heightened
the isolation
loneliness
unhappiness
and
fuck

i really need to get out of here
out of
this
i really fucking need
a reason
now more than ever
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