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Raz 20 mg?
In 6th grade?
I was only 115 pounds...

And it was then that they spawned an addict.

At 11 years old I was addicted to adderall, and they kept on telling me it was helping...

YOU FUCKING BASTARDS!

The FDA is the ultimate drug dealer!

I'm still prescribed it at 30 mg.

Sure it helps! Any fucking stimulant makes people more productive!
But I'm dead without it...
And I just don't see any reason to stop. None at all.
I only take what was prescribed to me - Nothing illegal here.

But I have to take it.

Don't get me wrong...I'll take a break...but only to get my tolerance down.
I can't see myself living outside of this.
I've grown attatched to the person I've become...even if adderall is part of that person.
If this has no long-term effects, then ok.
But if it does...I hate you bastards.
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... every day is a chance for reinvention
you can step past it. you already know that it needs to be curbed, if only for tolerance drop.
but there is a life where you are alive, and if you can, i wish you the strength to relocate there.
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