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logan_the_care_bear
Sonya the sullen feline Forgive me. Forgive me for my weaknesses and my flaws. Forgive me for what I've become, a zombie. Forgive me for allowing myself to die. Forgive me for failing you. Forgive me for giving you everything I could and still not giving you enough. Forgive me for wanting you, loving you, missing you, and worrying about you. I'm not able to shut off these feelings. I'm not you. Forgive me for trying to get through to you even though you don't care. Forgive me for offering myself to you (you deserve so much more.) I guess curiosity really can kill the cat...do you remember how it all started? Intrigue and attraction merged with random nocturnal thoughts. Why does it have to be this way? I always wanted another care bear. I had no idea this one would matter so much to me. Forgive me for that... 011009
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Aimee even pushing 2 years later, I still can't fully trust him 030915
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Arwyn I wonder if Sonya is still around, if she wants to hear the sordid story. She's so lucky she got away. If only I had been smart too.

for the record:
He was abusive.
He was adulterous (which I knew going in)
He is the biggest mistake I ever made.
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