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to anybody who crosses my right to whatever (whatever i feel entitled to, which is usually, but not always, modest).
What do you think I should do, kill myself?
i don't mean it as a joke. Not a lot of doors are open to me. When one is shut five more don't open. And that's just a function of the economy.
I'm boxing up my stuff and putting it in storage so this false sense of opportunity will quit torturing me as much. Peace of mind. My mother thinks spending 50 bucks a month on storage is a cardinal sin. She's also upset about Harriet Tubman, but she can't be abandoned as she gets older. I knew that if I stayed at home longer than 2 years (that's exactly what i told myself) my life would be effectively over. And I haven't proven it wrong.
I do have a very very rich life it's just all delusion and revenge served uncomfortably warm. I don't believe in revenge at all, the now is too interesting. But others do, so.... misunderstandings abound.
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