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xadle She asked what it would feel like to have my experience reflected, acknowledged, heard, validated...except she didn't say all that. She used some example phrases so that I could imagine how I'd actually feel.
I was honest and said that it would make me a bit nauseous.
I have to think about what it is that I actually want to hear or have happen when I feel hurt by my partner. Again. Because I'm still not clear.
I thought about all the apologies I've received over the years. Whether I believed them. What they meant to me. What happened afterwards.
I thought about all the apologies I never received, and of course, all those I never offered.
It's enough to make a lady start longing for the moon.
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