last_day_of_a_teenager
the girl formerly known as IGG
I
turn
20
tomorrow
,
making
this
the
last
day
of
my
teenage
years
.
I'm
sat
in
the
shaft
of
sunshine
searing
through
the
partially
open
curtains
cradling
a
brew
and
a
cig
and
wondering
what
the
hell
is
going
on
with
my
life
,
that
it's
going
all
to
pot
.
Quite
literally
a
lot
of
the
time
,
hmm
.
Anyway
it
has
been
a
time
of
soulsearching
recently
,
and
somehow
it
seems
that
many
of
the
things
that
have
happened
in
the
last
year
have
been
truly
negative
.
So
on
my
last
teenage
day
I'm
back
to
blather
,
which
I
found
on
a
chilly
December
day
in
2003
.
Good
old
blather
,
I
hope
you're
still
here
when
I'm
30
.
090412
...
past
.
090412
...
jane
you'll_never_be_a_teenager_again
(
congratulations
.
the
worst
is
over
.)
090412
...
danny
I
agree
with
Jane
.
and
have
a
great
year
of
upwards
from
here
.
090413
...
Lemon_Soda
Good
luck
.
090413
...
birdmad
weird
bridge
to
cross
,
no
?
090413
...
spoken
i
do
believe
i
enjoyed
being
a
teenager
the
edge
of
seventeen
so
full
of
my
own
thoughts
the
begining
of
my
self
exploration
a
point
where
i
truly
started
to
learn
my
own
mind
and
get
a
better
understanding
of
who
i
am
and
who
i
want
to
be
i'm
trying
still
to
reconcile
the
two
ten
years
later
it's
a
slow
going
journey
now
most
of
the
time
i
conciously alter
my
actions
to
fit
my
mental
imagery
of
an
ideal
self
but
at
others
i
just
am
in
the
moment
pure
thoughtless
motion
what
ever
happens
happens
at
17
i
was
raw
emotion
unrepentant
for
my
expressions
i
do
believe
i
miss
that
090423
...
danny
gosh
spoken
.
I
don't
think
I
started
to
accept
or
learn
my
own
mind
properly
until
I
was
27
or
28
.
That's
why
humans
live
long
.
A
horse
can
figure
itself
out
as
soon
as
it
gets
up
on
its
silly
long
legs
.
We're
slow
monkeys
.
And
Leonard
Cohen
didn't
know
start
as
singer
until
he
was
in
his
30s.
090423
...
spoken
I
don't
believe
I
had
it
all
figured
out
just
that
I
was
closer
to
a
true
me
then
I
believe
I
am
now
.
As
a
teenager
.
I
just
did
not
censor
myself
much
,
I
did
whatever
I
pleased
with
out
over
thinking
things
.
If
I
thought
it
I
said
it
If
I
wanted
it
I
found
a
way
to
get
it
.
I
feel
with
age
and
so
called
wisdom
I
have
drifted
slightly
from
my
full
self
.
Sort
of
like
I
muddle
my
colors
to
blend
in
with
the
world
sometimes
rather
then
standing
firmly
in
my
bright
neon
and
saying
Fuck
off
I
am
who
I
am
but
I
guess
that
is
a
bit
of
my
Libra
side
whom
is
determined
to
seek
balance
and
peace
at
war
with
my
personal
nature
of
wanting
to
rock
the
boat
and
drum
my
own
rhythm
.
120425
