justifying_my_existence
cantstand
Today
i've
been
thinking
.
Oh
i
have
been
thinking
.
How
I
can
take
this
life
of
mine
.
Started
with
nothing
like
an
animal
born
and
left
in
the
sand
.
How
can
I
make
this
beautiful
,
how
can
I
make
it
right
and
what
will
make
me
know
that
i'm
ok
now
.
All
those
mistakes
and
all
the
things
i
was
too
scared
to
say
and
do
and
now
im
feeling
stuck
in
something
that
maybe
i
dont
want
to
do
.
I
think
today
is
a
day
that
im
going
to
change
this
and
maybe
go
looking
where
i've
always
been
to
afraid
.
040713
...
nonlucid
I
always
tell
myself
late
at
night
that
I'm
going
to
change
my
life
and
do
something
special
,
become
a
better
person
who
people
will
like
more
and
become
less
idiot
and
self
-centred
and
stuff
.
I
invent
plans
and
things
to
do
,
long
and
convoluted,
and
trash
them
in
the
morning
Maybe
one
day
...
040713
...
Danio
with
a
kiss
040713
...
sab
each
6
months
we
have
a
6
monthly
meeting
with
the
boss
and
we're
supposed
to
write
an
essay
on
all
the
stuff
we've
done
in
the
past
6
months
how
good
we've
been
how
hard
we've
worked
how
far
we've
gone
above
and
beyond
what
they
pay
us
for
the
more
they
like
our
essays
the
bigger
the
pay
rise
they
give
us
as
opposed
to
the
gentle
sloping
rise
of
CPI
we
get
.
my
last
one
was
handed
in
titled justifying_my_existence
sab
didnt
do
very
well
in
the
pay
rise
stakes.
Fuck
Em
Fuck
Em
All
im
over
this
shit
.
next
essay
i
think
i'll
title
Bite
Me
040714
...
:)
Whitewash
...
040714
...
sahba
i
went
to
drop
one
of
my
friends
to
school
today
in
the
morining
it
was
fun
until
the
bell
rang
and
the
only
one
left
outside
was
and
me
and
as
i
walked
towards
by
bike
to
head
home
the
most
agoninzing
feeling
of
Loneliness
i
have
ever
felt
in
my
life
took
over
me
and
i
literally
cried
knowing
i
cant
go
back
to
that
life
to
"
normality
"
it
hurt
oh
it
hurt
so
damn
much
i
felt
like
killing
myself
knowing
i
did
this
to
my
self
knowing
now
i
just
cant
turn
back
and
be
what
i
used
to
be
now
what
i
think
mostly
is
if
i
even
know
what
i
want
for
myself
or
do
i
just
base
my
life
on
reflex
thoughts
and
emotions
040714
...
sahba
no
i
cant
i
cannot
justify
my
existence
all
i
know
is
im
alive
my
heart
is
beating
blood
running
in
my
veins
oxygen
in
my
lungs
days
keep
passing
and
life
gets
more
colourful
the
nights
become
darker
she
goes
further
away
and
everything
crashes
i
think
i
will
give
up
now
today
now
i
just
did
040714
