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| peyton |
never again. just tonight? okay |
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| emmi | it was one really crappy idea of mine. | 050727 |
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| emmi | i told him we could just sleep next to each other, he said he couldn’t do it. but anyway, there we are, me red-faced and red-eyed, walking towards the bus in silence, staring at the ground. at the stop for the 277, i couldn’t take it anymore. we waited for a while. i went to sit down and started to cry. he said let’s go back. so we went, and i felt relieved for some reason, as if it was going to solve anything other than me feeling lonely and empty that night when at home alone. when we got in, i went to brush my teeth, take off my contacts, change into my jogging shorts and the shirt he lent me. i crawled under the covers, all comfy and, for the moment, happy. he followed and he looked at me looking at him and then at the ceiling, then closed his eyes and looked at me again. i looked at him, delirious with love. i smiled. he laughed. | 050729 |