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perfectly_chaotic I am afraid of death.
I am afraid of the death of my family members.
I am afraid of what will become of me once they are dead.
I'm afraid my mother resents my never having finished college.
I am afraid of sinking back into a deep depression.
I am afraid of others talking about me behind my back.
I am afraid of my siblings fucking up their lives the way I've fucked mine up.
I am afraidmy criminal record will prevent me from ever getting a decent job.
I am afraid of someday relapsing.
I am afraid of the possibility I might goto prison.
I am afraid my sister does not love me, but would never admit it.
I am afraid of ignoring my emotions and later having them emerge at inappropriate moments.
I am afraid that if I goto prison there will be no acceptable place to show my emotions or cry.
I am afraid of the thought of getting into a violent confrontation in prison.
I am afraid of making amends to a few certain individuals.
I am afraid they won't forgive me.
I am afraid of the people in my life abandoning me.
I am afraid that I may never develop the courage to overcome all of my fears.
I am afraid of being so out of touch with reality that I will hurt others and later feel guilt and shame.
I am afraid others will hurt me emotionally.
I am afraid that if forced into a violent confrontation that I may be hurt physically.
I am afraid that if I ever finish college I will still never get a good job.
I asm afraid that I will never measure up to my father.
I am afraid of people stealing my posessions.
I am afraid of having my house broken into and being robbed.
I am afraid of being mugged on the street.
I am afraid of war & the global economy destroying the value of our dollar and having some of my loved ones lose everything they've worked hard for.
I am afraid of living alone.
I am afraid of having no home.
I am afraid that anyone being friendly might want something from me.
I am afraid of that I could be single forever.
I am afraid I will never get married or have children.
I am afraid that no woman will ever want me.
I am afraid that if I do somehow find a woman that I will become attached, fuck it up and then become depressed.
I am afraid to let a woman get to know me well because I might later be rejected.
I am afraid that I might not be good enough for anyone else.
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Doar Dude.....where the hell did the prison thing come about?

We are here, to talk, to support and most importantly to listen.

PC....you are a blatherskite.....

And that means no matter what we are here.

Just talk with us.

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Doar and I hear your fears. Each one of them.

Hey...or hay.....depression sucks...

it really fuckin sucks...

but in some small background mind I find that I can still continue.

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Doar And no matter what you have that drags you into fear.

We are here.

We are here.

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