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sometimes, a person just needs to rant. let it out. so, i've turned to you blather, to help me on this one.
yesterday was me and my boyfriend's 5 month anniversary. i just had my wisdom teeth out two days before though so we couldnt really do anything exciting. not that i needed to. or did i? niether of us have that much money, so we always end up doing the same old thing. but i like that. i like that i can be just sitting there and still be having fun. but tonight he went to bed at 1245. it's 242 now. and it's not the first time he's left me awake alone. not that its a big deal, but my parents are out of town tonite and we dont work till the afternoon, so why not stay up? have some fun? play loud music? be youthful?? at the very least keep me company in a lonely house instead of seeking oblivion while i wander aimlessly about talking to my cat. and i understand that he has worries. he's a capricorn. it;s all he does is worry. but, i'll admit there are more than quite a few things on his plate. i just wish he would let me help him, or let me know what to do! but no, he just mopes. i can't get through to him then. it's like my boyfriend is gone and instead i have AUTO-pilot boy. he smiles, but there's no spark. he hugs but there's no umph. and he sleeps alot. alot alot. maybe it's because im a total night owl and i can get 4 hours sleep and still be raring to go in the AM. i dont know. but it's frustrating. and i love him. but how am i supposed to tell him when he's not here?
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