blather
increasing_dread
unhinged please universe, let today be a good day. let nothing bad happen to me today. let me learn how to shut my mouth. let me learn how to not be so sensitive. let my appetite come back to me. let me teach all my students equally today.

really, just let today be a good day. i don't want to have to say i_pleaded and came away empty_handed yet again.
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unhinged post_dramatic_mess_disorder 090316
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nobody I said two weeks, and either direction keeps getting more difficult. Do I stay or do I go? Can't I just sleep for a decade or so, wake up with someone else's problems, someone else's life to suffer gladly? 090318
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unhinged not dread so much now as
defeat


but at least
ive learned to let
the smiles come through
whenever they arise
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