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Doar tell me what boogie street is for..
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unhinged or


we just end up motherfucking exhausted
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Doar damn...unhinged...you never play nicely...

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Doar damn...unhinged...you never play nicely...

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hsg Fear is the awareness_of_borders which do not stand a chance against the test_of_time

ilwd because_love_is_a_bridge

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unhinged i relearned recently that's why i can't drink whiskey. it makes me really irish, which let's go of what the polish catholic side told me to repress and people get upset



i am so tired from my recent nonrelationship that i can't think at work. my mind is shutting down cause my heart hurts so bad. all of the good parts of me just disappearing for someone who doesn't want to be bothered with my feelings.
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Doar than unhinged,

you need someone who doesn't know you.

i can't explain it any clearer.

try anew and settle into a trust.

. i do wish that you would find a settlement with yourself and your partner.

enough....i've rambeled too much tonight...

i have loved you, but from afar.

your heart is good, your actions are repetitive...

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unhinged i know. i know. some cycles are harder to break than others.


i really am fully and rationally aware of my defects. i'm just not sure how to not DO them anymore. my bleeding_heart can't be bleeding unless it's wounded
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Doar than your thoughts are saying don't step,

but I do have to disagree with that.

step, and name each of your steps, give them purpose, a goal. it could be an end, but not an end. An achievement at the end. Do you know what I am trying to impart?

i realize my communication is complicated. it is muddled and repetitive.

but it is always here, whether others view it as part of here, or another dragon they have to contend with.

i do so wish you another smile made in confidence.

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whatdoiknow I think to not disappear you have to be fully formed.
Step 1: Fix self.
Step 2: Get into a relationship with someone you have no desire to fix.
Step 3: If you find yourself starting to want to fix the other person, either get out of wanting that or get out of the relationship.
A good relationship isn't a project that constantly needs work or constantly causes heartache.
Of course, relationships do require work, and if you've grown up with dysfunctional parents it's hard to be certain whether or not you're having to do too much work. But in my experience, if you're wondering at all, the answer is probably yes. Even if you really love the person, things about the person. Even if you really really really want things to work. It's just a waste of time. You could be missing a much better person while you're stuck in the mud.
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minnesota_chris most of the time, eventually the person seems so odious that I can't stand them anymore. But I still don't want them to change. 100809