blather
if_you_show_up
Doar on my doorstep, you can knock twice, maybe even 3 times.

i will answer my door,
but the questions will commence.

.
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unhinged i might throw up all over your shoes


the way anger, anxiety, fear, pain, sadness
mix in my stomach
and jump into my throat



you pushed me out
you left me hanging
you didn't acknowledge me or try
and now words are supposed to erase that

sure
right

words can erase all that
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unhinged six_months_later
im pretty sure i ran into you
sure enough
that it made a pit in my stomach
the spot where the ulcer used to be
aching

i didnt look close enough
to be sure
the hole in my stomach
was enough
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