| i_want_to_but_i_won't | ||
| Ion maker |
say what I should say and move my body away. but you have a deep need to complain about everything that will not ever go right and all that has ever gone wrong. all your words are alcoholic, and your eyes are downcast. i don't want to leave you, liking your want to express, but i can't take this anymore. you won't change and i've changed too much for you, past the line when i should have said enough. you require someone else, someone with greater compassion and inherent strength to withstand your constant outbursts and damage. |
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| just a kid |
last night he looked so good, so pretty, and I wanted to fuck him so badly instead I smiled, and opened the door for him, and said "good night", "see you Monday" and I woke up this morning, alone, with a little bit more of my self-respect instead of a little bit less. I'd actually forgotten how that felt. |
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