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i'm_a_girl
blue star boys like me. this is shocking.

tonight I was told that I have a pretty face.

earlier this year mike told me I was a beautiful ape (if you want the story, just ask)...

and there have been others... like a total of 2 probly... but still... you know how you can just never, ever think of yourself as being in any way attractive to the other sex? I'm still there, but I'm starting to doubt the level of my assurance of that fact... if that made any sense. but damn, it's a good feeling.
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spoons a really boring girl... 020422
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silentbob i often feel that way, megan. sometimes people are like, "NO! aww yer cute!" and im like..."Go out with me?" and theyre like "Not that kind of cute." 020423
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ilovepatsajak i'm not going to break my banana into pieces because you're watching me!!! 020423
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misstree but if you remind me of that fact,
i'll tear you to pieces
in a most un-feminine manner
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Syrope :) amen to the banana. 020424
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unhinged and i have feelings i don't like to talk about. i don't want to beat you over the head to get you to love me. when phone calls don't get returned i won't keep calling. i like to oogle girls as much as men. if she has a nice ass i'm not going to not stare. i was so torn apart by the attractive people in the room. he was too gorgeous for words but she was my...she was my bach_goddess. there aren't exactly words for her either. i am a girl and sometimes i very much like it. 020424
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angie yesterday i was talking to scott. when i talk to scott...i always wonder what he is thinking...because he is truly mysterious. i get a little nervous because he just cant talk online. he does when he wants. and thats about it. i end up saying things like thats cool man, and whatever man. because it is just natural to say that to him. then yesterday he asked me why i always called him man. i didnt fucking know. i had never thought about it. i mean, sure it does sound kinda like what a guy would say, but i am used to talking like that with sam and practically every other guy that i know and am friends with. the he was like...well it sounds kinda masculine. and i didnt even know what to think...and i was just like...well im sorry but i wasnt concerned about impressing you with what i was saying. it was truly odd. it really makes me wonder what he is thinking...and what he really thinks about me. i wonder if what sam said is true...would we really make a perfect couple? i just dont know. he confuses me too much. i think he is a pisces. thats probably why. yeah he is...march 18th i believe. crazy how i remember that shit. its just a boy. who i have been fascinated with for how long now? well not long enough for it to actually mean anything. he just makes me think. yes...that is a good description. i am a girl. i guess he didnt think so. 020510
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cheer-up-emo-kid so I'm more sensitive than you
and Im smaller than you
so I get drunk and stoned faster than you.
and Im more sensible than you
so listen to me
and please understand this.
sometimes its hard to be "one of the guys".
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Sonya I'm just...
ordinary, insane, erroneous, soft, cracked, crying, hoping, dying, hurtful, bleeding, reaching, breathing

forced to be reckoned with but placed on appointment

stuck in an endless cycle of horrific patterns...either he destroys or I inevitably do it

fed up and looking back

walking on down the path, leaving petite foot prints and smelling a rose

I'm a girl...I hope the next time around I'm a swan or a peacock. They mate for life...no nonsense, just life.
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*silent screams Hi my name is Sarah, and if you can't tell....I'm a girl.
*gasp*
who would've guessed!!!
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girl_jane Soo...when do I become a woman? 030423
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forever endeavor a conversation online...

ME: rude
HIM: what? that was a wrong IM right?
ME: no... you signed off on me
HIM: no... i got kicked off... did that everr occur to you? or do you take every bad thing that happens as a personal offense to you...
ME: yes
HIM: ??
ME: yes, i am a self-centered egotistical bitch, the entire world revolves around me, and when someone's mean to me or pisses me off they simply deserve to die.
HIM: oh.
ME: mm hmm.
.... long pause
HIM: you know, you can be a real bitch sometimes
ME: yes, i'm aware.... but it at least it's only sometimes...
HIM: oh.
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ME: what? im_a_girl.... i have pms.
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User24 i'm_not_a_girl 030427
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Novice I'm a girl, but some ppl swear that I'm a tomboy...only cuz I don't cry...wellz I don't cry b/c when I do I get some serious headaches, so note *this* I'm a girl 030528