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| dukkha | I can't think about you bestowing your gentle indulgent chuckling and dopey smiles and giddy excitement on another girl without starting to cry. I can't even do bland research on jealousy or attachment without starting to cry. I feel sick to my stomach. I want those things to be special to us, to me. But they can't be, because you have feelings for her, a phrase which is easy to say, but then when I really think about what it means to have feelings, I think I might throw up. | 070305 |
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| stephshine | that 1st line says it all. | 070305 |
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| somebody | Perhaps now you ought spoon someone with a gut. | 070305 |