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i_dont_think_i_actually_have_feelings
peyton kinda like the feeling
when you pick up a rock
and in your mind
you know what a rough stone feels like
but you dont feel it
not like when you were a child
running your hand down a cool cement wall

its like a summary sheet in your mind
reading the label on some delicious emotion
but you cant actually feel it anymore

i dont think i actually have feelings anymore
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In_Bloom Xanax
Oxycontin
Percoset
Half a bottle of whiskey a night
Cocaine & Cialis on your days off

yup, that'll do it
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unhinged of the romantic variety


after a string of years
full of
creeps
that were bad in bed
while the only man
i truly want
is states away
working to put his kids
through college

...

i feel like there's no point
to trying
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