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megan
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am i homesick?
how does one answer that?
i am happy to be here. i really am. it's a wonderful opportunity, it will probably pay off the rest of my life.
but when all i think about during the day is being in your arms, all i think about at night is my bed, and at the many meals that i eat alone, my family.
when it makes me want to cry everytime i turn around because nothing feels the same, and people are telling me that nothing will be the same, and i just wish i could go back in time.
the whole meeting new people isn't going well either. when i talk to people, they just aren't interested in me and i don't know how to act extremely interested in them. being alone seems almost better. but then am i deemed an outcast?
i guess it's somewhat like high school. i have accquaintances. quite a few actually. but only a select few that i can really open up to. and they're the same people as before.
yes i'm homesick. in every definition of the word.
but i'm strong and will make great strides forward i suppose.
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