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now i realize that by hurting us i was hurting myself. perhaps some residue from my former masochism. i never wanted you to feel that way, especially because of me. you deserve better than what i can give you. i am trying my best, and even you said yesterday, that's all anyone can ever ask. i cannot believe how poorly i handled the situation. i had you right there and i totally fucking blew it. and now you're shut down and at home and i don't know when i'll get to see you again, if ever...
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Lover_Of_Light To embrace my bitter and let loose of my malice

You taught me how and now I move along with little remorse and so much to do yet
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somebody is all we're good at especially when we hurt ourselves. 090714