head_in_vise
weather
I've
been
on
the
verge
for
so
long
that
I
hardly
needed
anything
to
explode
. Reeling. Reeling!
Making
myself
stop
while
the
sedatives
kick
in
.
Waiting
for
the
sedatives
to
kick
in
so
I
can
go
to
the
pharmacist
for
more
.
I'm
not
clear
on
anything
anymore
.
I
don't
know
what
I
think
and
I
don't
want
to
know
.
P
.S.
Don't
answer
the
phone
when
you're
fighting
off
a
panic
attack
.
It
scares
people
.
It
doesn't
matter
what
I
think
about
anything
.
I'm
not
going
to
be
right
.
Its
just
my
opinion
.
My
perception
of
the
world
makes
me
unhappy
.
I
don't
like
it
.
I
don't
want
it
.
I
can
avoid
thinking
about
things
but
I'm
still
unhappy
.
It's
all
too
clear
now
that
any
goals
I
meet
will
still
not
make
me
any
happier
than
I
was
before
.
My
friends
make
me
so
unhappy
.
Having
no
friends
would
make
me
unhappy
.
My
job
is
so
hard
.
I
go
insane
when
I
don't
have
work
to
do
.
I
don't
want
to
live
and
I
can't
die
.
There's
all
these
choices
but
they
all
get
me
nowhere
,
so
essentially
I
have
no
choices
at
all
.
040207
...
Death of a Rose
give
the
screws
some
more
tightening.
040207
...
whether
yeah
i
found
a
few
extra
pills
040207
...
birdmad
drill_here
040207
...
snuff
it
will
be
crushed
like
a
bloody
tomato
but
i
forgot
how
fond
of
blood
you
ole'
boys
are
are
you
going
to
take
me
on
a
fishing
trip
and
lose
me
in
australia
with
someone
else's
face
on
my
passport
?
i
don't
really
have
any
excitingly
delightful
choices
to
make
,
do
i
?
NO
!
so
don't
involveme
in
your
stupid
shit
i've
got
to
walk
the
dog
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