grumble_sob_grrrr_wail
perfectly_chaotic
I
just
want
to
cry
and
break
stuff
.
Right
now
,
I
don't
know
which
desire
is
stronger
.
Oscillation
, desecration
of
my
mind
or
my
body
?
Which
first
.
I
want
to
self
-destruct.
I
look
up
at
the
moon
and
it
looks
like
it
is
wailing
in
pain
,
the
only
one
I
can
look
at
who
understands
me
,
but
it
is
so
far
away
it
cannot
hear
my
screams
of
rage
nor
see
the
rain
as
it
descends
from
the
raisins
within
their
home
within
my
skull
.
My
mind
says
to
throw
my
empty
glass
of
beer
at
the
wall
and
then
pierce
it
with
my
fist
.
Then
it
tells
me
to
sob
.
What
the
hell
is
wrong
with
me
?!?!?!?!?
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perfectly_chaotic
I
hate
being
human
.
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perfectly_chaotic
Perhaps
,
I
ought
to
become
the
monster
that
lives
in
my
head
for
awhile
.
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perfectly_chaotic
the_monster_that_lives_in_my_head
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unhinged
samsara
i
argued
the
first
of
the_four_noble_truths
with
a
younun'
tonight
at
the
bar
under
my
apartment
we
all
suffer
it's
what
humans
do
it's_the_human_condition
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...
unhinged
(
when
i
think
of
me
a_year_ago
i
know
parts
where
stolen
from
me
innocence_lost )
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