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bye,
theres only so many things I can ruin before I realize...i really should go, I'm really just not welcome.
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I'm only talking about blather, not the people. 021129
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xx gee, I wonder who this could be 021129
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x oh nonsense.
we all know you're not going anywhere.
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girlnamedlover did you expect it all to stop at the wave of your hand?
like the sun is just going to drop, if its night you demand.
well in the dark we are just air so the house might dissolve.
but once we are gone, who is gonna care if we were ever here at all?
well summer is going to come and its gonna cloud our eyes again.
there is not need to focus when there is nothing that it worth seein.
so we trade liquor for blood in an attempt to tip the scales.
I think you lost what you loved in that mess of details.
they seemed so important at the time but now you cant even recall any of the names faces or lines, it is more the feeling of it all.
well winter is going to end and Im going to clean these veins again.

so close to dying that I finally can start living.

-conor
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