blather
golden_light
Soma streaming through the shades
i've been locked outside for five hours
its nice to lay on the sofa
and watch the dust filtering through
horizontal bars
you cant touch it
you cant really feel it
but you need it

i turn it on in the morning
while the shades are still closed
a white glow then
but i shut my eyes and it seems the same
my brain says it is the same thing
and i push the little white pills away
in exchange for gold
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In_Bloom I have bathed naked in that golden light
Loved
What ugliness I've known didn't show on me then
There were no scars
No bruises
No face ravaged by too little sleep

I would give up all vices in order to lay in that light again
Loved
If there are gawds then surely they'll let me have a hit of that
At least once more time?
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