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sphinxradio so many nervous people at school now. some, not so nervous as they've been accepted early. others, waking up to realize it's time to request transcripts from the school.

i think i might not get into nyu. bad feelings about it for the past couple of weeks.

also a nice song by blink_182.
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ClairE Is the best feeling ever.

The night before it, Lisa and I had hot discussion about phone_sex and guys named Montana,
and I kissed someone I love.

Loved.

Love.
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Fire&Roses I have one week. A week to say goodbye to people I've known forever and try to get ready for things I don't know. I have a week. A week to hang out one last time with Angie. A week to go waverunning one last time with Jess. A week to get Timmie to say goodbye to me. A week to tell Juli, I won't forget her. A week to pack up anything I might need to be happy. A week to choose the important stuff from a room full of meaningful yet inconsquential stuff. A week to tell my mom that she did a good job and I will miss her. I used to think a week was a long time.

"Just don't forget to think about me
And I won't forget you"
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tortuous is the greatest thing in the world... away, free from my old


but out there away from the fuzzy memories the new is cold to me, waiting to be filled... and i just don't know how to do that yet

so i come back, back to the valley i live in... every weekend to my old and i can't let go, can't move on and yet i know why i left....
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