blather
god's_bathroom_floor
jane head, pressure, senses, clutched
date, divinity, wouldn't, fuck
touched, hazy, god, change
rush, floor, life, veins

from a head full of pressure rests the senses that i clutch
made a date with divinity, but she wouldn't let me fuck
i got touched by a hazy shaded, god help me change
caught a rush on the floor from the life in my veins

it goes one for the cannabis, and two for your dianoetics
three for your reasoning, and four for those that try to get it
five for your love, and six for the stress
and seven for the day that i climbed into this mess

i'm catching ulcers from the child proof lighters
and all these fine tooth biters that keep the wires in my head tighter
i tired out by the distances achieved walking in my sleep
thorns got it tagged too deep
ask dad to keep cool, i'll call him back as soon as i resume normal
and get out of this bathroom
and call management to seek some reimbursement
for the nerve ending that burnt from the first hits

so fuck needles, fuck smoke
fuck lines that make the sinus choke
fuck chasers, trails, fuck waves and rails
fuck hang-overs, fuck hallucinations
regurgitations, mandatory sentences and ua tracing
blind my insight and dull the common sense
give me inner vision, kill the superstition and the confidence
built the tolerance, now it's more that i consume it
when it boards up my room, the world's whores will croon in unison
unify the eulogy, autopsy pages read euthanasia, i.e., irony
but here i be within a pool of my drool
sedated, windows dilated, comatose, life overdose
tell jacob miles to keep it wild style
i promise i'll smile
and check the floor, god's got nice tiles
tell jacob miles to keep that shit wild style
and i'll smile
and check the floor, god's got nice tile

from a head full of pressure rests the senses that i clutch
made a date with divinity, but she wouldn't let me fuck
i got touched by a hazy shaded, god help me change
caught a rush on the floor from the life in my veins

head, pressure, senses, clutched
date, divinity, wouldn't, fuck
touched, hazy, God, change
rush, floor, life...


[ atmosphere ]
030717
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ferret nice 030717
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jane heroin 030720
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unhinged .


slug 's got it now with the dead_weather
shoulda_known
once again
i'm wasted on
god's_bathroom_floor
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unhinged ( le_petit_mort ) 100324
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unhinged my baby's got a thing for benzos
cause he can't give up what makes his heart go
phum phum

he blacks out
doesn't remember the fights
falls asleep on my floor
doesn't remember
thinks i don't see
somehow i still want to hold on
not sure what pushes me along

if i could figure out why i love him
make i could move along


my heart and my mind don't line up
he tried to push me out
i wouldn't give up
but one day it sputtered to nothing
i couldn't argue anymore
it didn't mean my heart changed
i just didn't have the energy


he still called everyday
for weeks
he still wanted to fuck
for cheap

i still answered the phone
out of weakness
i still was afraid to be alone
out of 'i remember when'


you pulled over to pick me up
out of all reason
i got in the truck
half way there you fell asleep
when the light turned green
i had to poke you
green means go

benzos
you taught me how to nod off
when things get tough
being that close to me again
and the combination of pills
made you forget you were driving
made you feel a little ill

it was the first time i really hugged you in weeks
i walked_away
weak in the knees
i_miss_you_more_love_you_most
you don't want to be here
but you don't want to let go
you haven't called in days
i'm relieved and pissed
sane and crazed

i have to get used to life
without_you again
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minnesota_chris big underpants 100330
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unhinged chasing_the_dragon
on my bathroom floor


god_damn_it
why_i_don't_believe_in_god
110114
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unhinged ( shoulda_known when you disappeared for so long)

god_damn_it
god_fucking_damn_it
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