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Queen of Smashing Glass Houses (QSGH) that_i_had_been_longing_for 080716
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Syrope any body. just one that freakin' WORKS.

i peeled off the tape from where they took blood, and then forced myself to forget about the whole thing. then, on my back with a bar of weights approaching my forehead in a tricep extension, i saw the red blip on the inside of my elbow. and i started "listening" for the pain in my joints.

i hadn't felt it before without using my fingers, but when we stretched, my right leg was much tighter than the left one. psychological? she pronounced me healthy, all over.

it's just going to take a little while for me to believe her
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tourist The Wear and Tear Only Gets Worse With The Passage Of Time Believe Me.
I Used To Think All Those Old Folks Were Just A Bunch Of Whiners But Now That I Am One I Understand. Youth Is Wasted On The Young.
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unhinged i used to think i was alone
because i was fat
not so fat anymore
and still alone
but
having to fend off the creeps too
not so successfully
i don't know what body i want anymore


a new right arm would be nice though
stupid shoulder
stupid elbow
stupid wrist
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Juicer I gave it to myself. 080717