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... position
curl up tight, muscles cramping and bones contricting
imploding like a neutron star
pillbug, common woodlouse roling up tight into a ball,
scuttling, chitinous thing
vivisect
nerves attenuated like guitar string ready to snap
tripwires and dreams
drink a little water and wait for sleep to come down, curse myself for resolving once and for all trying to have the resolve to quit smoking
ponder the blue LED glow of the old stereo and the wind rattling the sheetmetal next door, roof_rat rustling in my ceiling.
old house settle, roof creaking dogs barking cats fighting in alley behind the house
finish the bottle of water and drink another, finish the carton of juice, drink more water, have a beer, drink more water
thirsty, foot of my bed ittered with plastic bottles that did not land in the trashcan
curl up tight with the sound of my pulse sloshing through the fluid in my ears, primal memory of defenseless smallness swumming in a blood red night in a saltwater world
every morning i am born, the course of my day is the course of my life and in the twilight moments before sleep, i die.
and every day repeat the process
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