blather
falling_into_the_abyss
*sad* crying
falling
sinking

loneliness envelopes me
why can't you envelop me instead
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*sad* motherfucker,

envelops*
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ClairE Why am I on blather again? I promised him. 020131
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Mahayana i told myself,
sassafrass [get out of there]
in a clash of wills,
a Scorpio is likely
to be the loser
my opponent had...
fuck... [still] has
so much power over me
that a fair competition
never was possible
seemingly accidental
really engineered
Walk away while
you can
sassafrass
walk away

[fuck babe, you could so do whatever, you wanted with me, yet you invested in so little] [cursed stars upon my heads tongue] [why did they have to be blue][everything blue reminds me of you][anything diesl][anything aboriginal][anything fucking amazing]
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Syrope cuddled with my pillows under my blankets...letting my subconscious slide out of hiding into my mind, my true feelings slinking out of where i sentenced them to the corner...but being careful not to leave behind evidence that they've been out romping. but when i wake up in a nervous panicky sweat, when i wake up in tears, with heaving sobs, when i wake up cold and trembling...i know... 020411
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u_again mix in a lil luv :::: falling into the abliss 020412
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sab and falling
and falling
and falling
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