explosion_of_the_heart
perfectly_chaotic
It
is
as
if
the
heart
has
been
held
firmly
within
a
vicegrips;
only
awaiting
the
inevitable
turns
of
the
crank
.
As
the
pressure
built
up
the
heart
stretched
and
expanded
outward
.
As
years
piled
upon
years
, cranks
followed
cranks
and
the
heart
became
fuller
and
fuller
until
it
finally
burst
!
The
heart
,
the
heart
,
its
dark
blood
emerges
like
a
geyser;
the
power
which
it
emits
makes
approaching
the
wound
impossible
.
The
heart
grows
empty
as
it
grows
full
because
the
pain
and
the
joy
both
flow
freely
through
a
great
gaping
hole
in
its
walls
.
110511
...
unhinged
gears_stripped
?
wept
i
still
feel
horrible
when
i
know
he
is
far
away
,
although
the
relief
is
beginning
to
take
over
.
i
am
split
over
my
decisions
.
being
sad
and
relieved
feels
strange
.
knowing
that
speaking
my
heart
would
hurt
him
conflicts
me
.
i
feel
stuck
,
boxed_up
,
tarnished
.
walking_away
sucks
especially
when
the
other
person
won't
let_go
my
sadness
turns
to
anger
because
somehow
that
seems
easier_to_deal_with
but
either
way
i'm
not
liking
the
person
i
am
these
days
110511
...
falling_alone
I'm
trying
to
live
with
no
regrets
Ending
this
probably
for
the
best
To
have
some
time
apart
But
oh
god
,
if
the
way
I
did
it
didn't
hurt
like
hell
falling_alone_is_drowning
110512
...
unhinged
and
i
am
drowning
in
the
same
lake
with
you
but
i
feel
the
confidence
i
have
cultivated
on
the
path
underneath
like
sunshine
hidden
by
clouds
it
is
a
little
whisper
from
above
the
water
when
i
feel
overwhelmed
that
reminds
me
to
keep
swimming
to
keep
kicking
to
keep
fighting
spiritual_warrior
spiritual_gangster
110512
...
unhinged
keep
swimming
keep
kicking
keep
fighting
ugh
this
damn
ulcer
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