blather
every_time_it_beings
Ouroboros Every time it begins
to get better-
it gets bad again.
And I am disarmed and defenseless.
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pete every time it begins
to fade away
i'm swept up again
and am left smiling and confused
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Doar every time it begins
to lose focus-
it smiles once more.
And I am here and listening.
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pete every time it begins
singing softly-
the snowflakes falter
drifting up to blanket your smile
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REAListic optimIST every_time_it_begins
the_familiarity_fades
fear_springs_eternal
until_being_vanquished_anew
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. every time it begins
to seem totally pointless
the spirit-visions return
and my nihilisms collapse
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Ouroboros every time it begins
to sweep me up
i remember all the light
that shines
i remember i remember
071209
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pete every time it begins
to seem alone and frozen
moments blur
and the light shimmers golden.
071209
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pete every time it begins
and this music fills the room
my eyes begin to close,
my thoughts are no longer my own
071209
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sameolme every time it begins
my eye is drawn
and you hold the pen
071209
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. every time it begins
the water-soaked socks
begin to whirl and warm up
(they're in the dryer again)
071209
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Ouroboros every time it begins
i am reached out to
a kiss, a touch on my back
he brings me back
even if only for a moment
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pete every time it begins
again
to fade and step away,
a dimness rises--
cloudy and clear--
to sweep away,
again,
the silent steps you take.
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Doar every time it begins,
the toll of goodbye,
and yet my eyes roll,
at her every grace.

solitude calls her,
no stability with her kisses,
I walk with her now,
at shimmering snow.

and dreams she lives,
without the fools,
between her saviours,
I dare again to fade.
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dozyn2 It surely must end 080110
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Ouroboros every time it begins
and I am overtaken with negative emotions,
I go back_to_the_source of the issue,
the conflict I had avoided and blow out of proportion, and face it and deal with it,
and it ends.
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unhinged i know
i feel it
i can practically pinpoint the day
the hour
the minute
but i still can't stop myself from slipping
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spoken everytime it begins
i am surprised anew
my passions are rekindled
my mind is trained on you
i feel you, i breathe you
your essence is inhaled
you touch me, i touch you
our desire is unveiled
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