blather
even_deeper
psychobabe NIN

Come as you are, as you were,
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend, as an old enemy
Take your time, hurry up
The choice is your, don't be late
Take a rest as a friend as an old memoria
Come dowsed in mud, soaked in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend, as a friend, as an old memoria

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
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psychobabe NIN

i woke up todayto find myself in the other placewith a trail of my footprints
from where i ran awayit seems everything i've heardjust might be true
and you know me(well you think you do)sometimes, i have everything-
yet i wish i felt somethingdo you know how far this has gone?
just how damaged have i become?when i think i can overcomeit runs even deeper
in a dream i'm a different mewith a perfect youwe fit perfectly
for once in my life i feel complete-and i still wanna ruin itafraid to look
as clear as daythis plan has long been underwayi hear them calli cannot stay
the voice inviting me awaydo you know how far this has gone?
just how damaged have i become?when i think i can overcomeit runs even deeper
everything that matters is gone (everything that matters is gone)
all the hands of hope have withdrawn (everything)
could you try to help me hang on?it runs...
011021
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psychobabe yes i know i messed up extremely cuz i was copying and pasteing oh well fuck me my mistake 011021
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Casey that's fine, no matter how it looks, it is still great. 011023
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translucent uhh... those first lyrics arent NIN at all. those are Nirvana lyrics. 011024
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psychobabe lol yes yes translucent i know i know i fucked up :s eh i'm sorry 011024
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unhinged i remember when i used to love you

at least back then i was still feeling something
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silentbob every time we do this i fall for her
wave after wave after wave
it's all for her
i know this can't be wrong i say
(and i'll lie to keep her happy)
as long as i know that you know
that today i belong
right here with you
right here with you...

and so we watch the sun come up
from the edge of the deep green sea
and she listens like her head's on fire
like she wants to believe in me
so i try
put your hands in the sky
surrender
remember
we'll be here forever
and we'll never say goodbye...

i've never been so
colourfully-see-through-head before
i've never been so
wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
and all i want is to keep it like this
you and me alone
a secret kiss
and don't go home
don't go away
don't let this end
please stay
not just for today

never never never never never let me go she says
hold me like this for a hundred thousand million days
but suddenly she slows
and looks down at my breaking face
why do you cry? what did i say?
but it's just rain i smile
brushing my tears away...

i wish i could just stop
i know another moment will break my heart
too many tears
too many times
too many years i've cried over you

how much more can we use it up?
drink it dry?
take this drug?
looking for something forever gone
but something
we will always want?

why why why are you letting me go? she says
i feel you pulling back
i feel you changing shape...
and just as i'm breaking free
she hangs herself in front of me
slips her dress like a flag to the floor
and hands in the sky
surrenders it all...

i wish i could just stop
i know another moment will break my heart
too many tears
too many times
too many years i've cried for you
it's always the same
wake up in the rain
head in pain
hung in shame
a different name
same old game
love in vain
and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
away from home again...
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psychobabe bobby your always good with your words 011025
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no reason i was brought to this when i clicked the go button. figures. 030605
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birdmad from_the_edge_of_the_deep_green_sea

the_cure
030605
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megan why do your eyes look so sad in that picture
girls on your arms
beers in your hands
everything you'd ever wanted

why do they look so sad
060313
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Vulgar Burned out dreams, strained thoughts, and feelings of doubt. Thats why. 060405
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(_) even deeper
than the hole [chasm, tear]---look,
mommy, look! i dug all by
myself to hide in. aren't you
proud?---of me
as i scrape [chafe, injure, claw] away at
life, like the mouse i am,
to burrow in this
little air pocket of safety.

but---the monsters
demons, freaks] still come.
save me[girl, mouse]!
help me dig [delve]
even deeper.
060406
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*Amy* for the first time a friend of mine saw my scars in my wirst. I swear it wasn`t the best best person to see them, definitly. I don`t know what is he thinking about my right now, or even if he is going to tell this to another one, fffffff....that leaves me even deeper. it`s been a year and a half and nobody knew it! I don“t want to see him at least for a very long time. 060406
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megan what dreams? what thoughts? why doubt? 060407
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Vulgar Feelings of emptiness,
Of a show,
Of a clown,
A drunk,
A crushed soul,
Of a cold heart,
A bleak outlook,
A want to find someone who understands me for everything I am good and bad,
To feel what it was like when it was ok to cry again,
For the delirium tremors to stop in the morning,
To stop coughing blood,
To just be... feel alive inside again...
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megan it's ok to cry 060707
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p2 "I'm just gonna accept
my loneliness.
And I'm gonna go
to an even darker place of nothingness.
From an even farther,
more extreme nothingness on my own!
Who needs you guys?"
- tommy (i_heart_huckabees)
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Soma I'd cut that far,
but you are shallow
and I would hit the leaden stone
that you call yourself.
060708
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*Amy* why does it allways have to be the wrong moment in the right place for me?? I make a lot of effort to be in the right place, and it`s never worth it!!! while there are some others that get to that place a lot easier than me and gets exactly what I was looking for or even more!! it`s not fair!!! I need to shout, I need a cut... 060708
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megan when did everything stop in shallow waters 060906
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Vulgar The burn in my throat goes. White bumps in my throat, and blood in my vomit. I don't know how much more I have in me. 080928
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In_Bloom I'm afraid to look in your eyes
I know what I'll see there
It'll be my hope rushing up into my throat
Giving me over to a cough
It's so dangerous to fall especially since you've never let me
You catch me every time
And you keep on loving me
Even deeper
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