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dlexa How do you give up hope?
Trying to be rational. Doing the math.
Probability. What is the probability?
(that they will ever...)
Surely it's possible.
But not very likely.
So then you can decide not to hope. Rationally.
But when the next disappointment comes you realize that somewhere in your sneaky sad little heart there was something left- something that allowed for disappointment.
You had expectations you didn't want to have.
Didn't mean to have.
You told yourself you'd given up hope.
But you lied.
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edxla endless_heartbreak
the hope can get infinitely smaller, but it never dies
maybe *this* is your bottom
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unhinged abandon_expectation


such a hard thing, maybe too hard. i thought i was done being hurt over our relationship. but recentlyi realized the extent of my own choices and actions on the outcome and now i just have guilt to add to the hurt
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unhinged speaking_of_love 190512