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Dear L_________
thanks so much for being such a caring friend, and being there for me all summer. I will treasure all the countless times I called you and we never talked. Boy, those sure are SWELL memories. oh, or how about that time we didn't go to the park, and we didn't buy sandwiches just like you promised, and that guys dog almost bit my face off? haha, yeah! that's the memories summer is made of!
I just wanted to tell that I really can't express what i feel for you! You've always never been there the past month for me, I can barely express what this means to me. And now- as I'm grinning idiotically to myself, with my emotional turmoils bubbling to my fleshy surface- I realize how terribly selfish it is of me to act this way.
Guess I'm a selfish bastard then. Allow me to rant.
Maybe I seem a little too desperate. I called you 8 times.I left my number. I left my name (with your mom, grandma, and sister). But i WAS desperate.
All throughout the schoolyear you prodded me with your religion, and now, in times of emotional distress and human failing, as I flail about, i come to you, seeking you and your loving religion. Of course, you're too busy being loving at the nursing home, or the bookstore, or seeing one of your many sick cousins.
Maybe I am not important enough to your god.
I guess it's rough trying to love everyone huh? What's a few fallen comrades, when compared to the greater good? I'm so proud of you, dear friend, so proud that you've promised so much and put out so little. I'm so glad that i've met you, so i can learn to not expect to much from people like you in the future. You've got so many friends. I guess it's hard to keep up with people like me, who don't get out much.
It's ok, I won't blame you. I only hope that nobody else can or will hold you accountable.
Always,
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