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peytonwolf.vampire.blind.touched.reached.go she's so simply complicated
and blonde
and blue
and giggly
and when she looks at me
with her lips slightly parted
and smiles that angel smile
everytime
and i mean everytime
i feel like she's looking at someone else
even when
we are the only two people in the room
everytime she leaves i think it was a dream
everytime she goes i tell myself she's never coming back
she's so light
and full of grace
how can she not tell that i am a vampire
a greedy raven
bound to the earth with wings with no feathers

once i embraced it
but now i feel myself shy away from the light
her light
her beautiful light touch
void of tragedy
or hurt
or longing nights of despair
whenever i look up
i see her alabaster hands
reaching down
telling me
touching me
pushing me to ascend

if she is a demon
a devil
she will kill me
there will truly be nothing left
every shard i have left
she's got
everything good in me
she is completely intertwined in
it is such a dangerous center
i breathe in
these days

i don't know what to do
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