frustration_and_flaws
Piso Mojado
the
more
time
i
spend
with
him
the
more
i
am
frustrated
and
annoyed
by
so
many
things
about
him
,
big
and
small
and
then
i
realize
that
it
is
annoying
me
only
because
they
are
things
i
also
do
and
i
recognize
that
,
but
even
so
,
back
to
today
and
yesterday
and
now
-
im
still
annoyed
and
still
frustrated
060105
...
Piso Mojado
maybe
i
need
to
not
spend
so
much
time
with
him
(
with
any
one
person
)
in
so
concentrated
and
prolonged
period
of
time
060105
...
Piso Mojado
or
maybe
our
entire
relationship
will
be
short
lived
because
i'm
going
INSANE
that
all
we
talk
about
is
either
him
or
our
relationship
this
is
not
conversation
060105
...
Piso Mojado
blather_confessional
,
yah
!
all
these
things
i'm
not
sharing
with
him
060105
...
Piso Mojado
then
shared
and
not
so
hopeless
or
huge
no
one
is
perfect
least
of
all
myself
relationships
take
time
060110
...
birdmad
my
flaws
are
the
roots
of
my
frustrations
060110
...
Piso Mojado
and
yet
(
to
quote
you
in
a
quote
that
i
had
up
on
my
wall
for
a
while
)-
it_is_by_the_grace_of_your_flaws
that
you
are
real
060110
...
Piso Mojado
stuck
and
stuck
and
stuck
again
and
again
who
i
am
who
am
i
failure
becuase
i'm
not
that
strong
,
i
can't
keep
pushing
a
pretend
as
though
i
had
decended
from
olympus
just
from
olympia
and
drunk
and
unsatisfied
and
disappointed
in
myself
and
betray
myself
when
i
am
with
those
i
love
those
beautiful
men
,
those
beautiful
women
who
have
old
souls
,
who
have
taken
those
steps
to
find
themselves
dont
they
know
i
am
ugly
fat
dumb
stuck
imposter
stuck
in
loops
monkey
(
who
wants
to
read
this
filth
)
i
talk
about
my
shadow
ohh
yes
,
im
learning
to
face
my
shadow
i
am
going
to
be
a
psychologist
i
am
going
to
become
a
vessel
for
others
i
am
going
to
help
right
o
with
this
self
doubt
with
this
guilt
with
this
stupid
ugliness
backtrack
backlash
undeserving
060115
...
Ouroboros
I
don't
know
what
to
do
.
My
job
makes
me
want
to
stick
my
head
in
the
toaster
oven
-
but
I
don't
know
what
else
to
do
.
Save
up
and
travel
again
?
Apply
to
graduate
school
?
Find
a
different
job
(
but
which
one
?)
I
feel
stuck
and
trapped
-
this
stupid
la
rich
bitch
life
that
i
am
propelling
for
this
little
girl
-
stupid
waste
of
energy
and
time
.
Should
I
go
back
to
guatemala
like
G
and
find
a
nonprofit
and
actually
help
people
live
?
I
just
can't
handle
spending
my
time
doing
this
and
then
spending
half
my
pay
check
on
a
room
in
a
house
with
people
who
i
don't
want
to
live
with
.
And
my
boyfriend
who
i
love
so
terribly
much
,
I
can't
call
him
because
i
can't
keep
calling
him
every
time
i
feel
sad
or
lonely
-
i
have
to
give
him
space
too
.
i'm
sitting
in
my
room
and
my
belly
is
full
and
my
body
is
recovering
from
its
illness
and
i
am
warm
and
clean
and
i
should
have
nothing
to
complain
about
and
use
this
time
to
create
art
or
learn
or
take
classes
but
i
am
drained
and
stuck
and
scared
.
break
me
out
of
this
.
080107
...
hsg
through
what
do
you
find
genuine
happiness
?
080108
...
Ouroboros
If
I
knew
that
-
I
would
pursue
it
.
Happiness
is
fleeting
moments
these
days
-
brief
feelings
of
goodness
and
joy
that
dissipate
and
dissolve
quickly
.
080721
